L. Santiago | 091498 | 15
Hello. I am honestly not quite certain about myself; however, I do know that I like reading books and taking photos of sceneries, things, and people that I love and would like to remember as days continue to go by. When reading, I am not particularly fond of textbooks, of course, and I am rather interested in books with certain stories that would take me out of this world. I also like a bit of poetry and I am constantly longing for a better vocabulary so that I may continue to find the correct words that may be able to express my feelings as they truly are. I also like making friends and I am generally nice to people. Though I am not entirely fond of going outside, I also love talking with my friends and sharing ideas, opinions, and humor. I like sleeping and the cold weather. I want to explore the world and know a lot of things. I dream of finding the true meaning of life and my purpose. Furthermore, I want to find happiness and satisfaction. It is quite difficult, but I learn throughout the journey that is my life. Despite all of these desires, I remain ever-grateful for all of the blessings God has given me-- for God's presence and grace, for my friends, for my family, for him, for my life itself and the various experiences and realizations that it has brought upon me. So with that, I would like to continue moving forward, pondering, living.
Posted 2 days ago // 109,806 notes
"One. Do not promise when you’re happy.
Two. When you are angry, do not respond.
Three. Do not decide when you’re sad."
Posted 2 days ago // 97,715 notes
"You know you are on the right track when you become uninterested in looking back."
Unknown (via psych-facts)
Posted 2 days ago // 29,347 notes
i feel like crap for i have the feeling that i have become a terribly selfish and self-absorbed monster and i am so sorry. so, so sorry. to every one and to myself — to every version of myself that died.
Posted 6 days ago // 1 note
as i have to prepare for my geometry test tomorrow, i shall now write what had happened today so that i may be able to cease thinking about it further as i study. so today was practically a great day with a lot of ups and downs, but through it i have learned: 1. i need to sort out my priorities 2. i must be happy. with that, i thank every one who made this day great (namely thyra, kaye an, him, and most people who had not made this day shitty) and i would like to say sorry and damn it cheer up to myself who i had put too much pressure on and who i had given too much drama and confusion.
as ma’am sally had said: ”keep it simple, stupid.” so with that i should really make everything more simpler for me. she also said something like with perfection comes complications (so true) so yeah. i am confusing myself too much and i am making things more complicated for myself boo hoo so priorities yeah priorities. school is a problem for it is quite complicated. there are people i like and i.. like less. there are people who i understand whilst there are people who seem to be out of their minds. even so, i am afraid of what they say about me. i should not. i go to school to study and learn. period. i have friends and i am a friend. friends may leave, but what’s important is that i do not. and i have not and will not. so if you think i have, you are wrong. my family is okay and i love them entirely except for a few i am not entirely fond and i have no idea who some are but bear with me please i am not closed-minded and i would love to build better relationships. furthermore, as a person i am trying my hardest to improve and i am certain most of us are (well, i hope so) so this is practically my dilemma recently: who am i and what do i believe. i do not know.
and maybe i should not push myself too hard for not knowing because i cannot be fully certain. being fully certain is practically impossible, anyway.
so three rules. 1. be good 2. be happy 3. keep it simple, stupid
my head is beginning to hurt like tartarus and i am in desperate need pf sleep, but despite that i’d like to say i am so thankful for this day for it was quite great
Posted 1 week ago // 126,427 notes
i freaking saw a freaking double rainbow today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg omg omg it’s my first time to see one and i was like motherflipping noodles of tartarus whaaaaaaaat. at first glance i did not realize it was a double rainbow for as you can see the second one is not as visible as the first one but fortunately i was reminded of double rainbows so i looked back once more and crap a double rainbow!!!!!!!
anyway my head was hurting like tartarus before i woke up this night, but gladly it went away and left me so gloriously well and headache-free. wonderful. furthermore, renz was able to finish our powerpoint presentation for chemistry (yay) and mai, mariel, sam, tino, him, and i were able to finish our parish involvement too (yay).
i ate a really really really good banana split crepe with him today for it was hot as tartarus but terribly humid with a bit of rain. yesterday’s weather is beyond better than today’s.
when he walked me home we asked tons of questions for each other. i’ve always wanted to do this and finally question and answer crap hooray.
anyway, aside from that i’m on my first week of the opus angelorum thing and i do hope it would help me be a better person. pls pls pls. furthermore i have realized how suckish my social life truly is but i do not really care i love my friends and they’re the best despite how few they are and i also love my family and yeah i am so blessed and i don’t know. i want to be a better person for them.